The 12 Days (Until) Christmas...

... start tomorrow. I'm not a grinch or a scrooge, but it has been a long time since I have really enjoyed the holidays. I appreciate the original and true meaning of Christmas, which is the rememberence and recognition of the birth of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. But the days of family, togetherness, and joy is all but gone for me. In family situations, I usually feel separated from everyone else, an invited guest. I didn't like the crowding feeling when a bunch of people are in my mom's house during the years that I lived there. I can enjoy living on my own, with not even a trifling boyfriend to hold me back. These days I oscillate between lonely and just fine. I pray and watch the Trinity Broadcasting Network, so I'm never that far from just fine.